I hate failure and unnecessary competition.
I absolutely hate it when things end and I have to start all over again, especially close relationships. After all the sacrifices I made and the inconveniences I endured, that relationship ends.
There are some things I wish lasted forever, especially close relationships with some people. I hate losing friends. I am tired of meeting new people and introducing myself all over again. I am tired of making an effort to be with someone for that relationship to fail.
The most painful relationships to lose are family members then friends and lovers. Most of the time family members are the people you meet first in your life and learn to love. You develop a deep affection and closeness with family, losing any of them is devastating.
I do not want to meet anyone new. I am content with my life and the people I have in it. I cannot deal with one more failed relationship in my life especially with someone I was very close to. I will not fully recover.
So far I have been able to deal with all the losses in my life. They were very difficult experiences for me.
Competition is good only if it is necessary to avoid monopoly like vegetables at the market. It is good to have a lot of people sell the same product so one person does not monopolise the market and sell things at high prices.
Unnecessary competition is when I am dating or married to you and I have to compete for you love and attention with your friends or work. Prioritise! I am your wife so treat me as such. I want to have access to you when it is necessary. I do not have to an book appointment to see my husband nor be with a man who is dating another woman while we are also dating.
Most people have accepted romantic relationships especially marriage to be monogamy. We are just two until we have children. I will not share you with anyone.
I will not be desperate for someone especially a man. You either mine or not. I will not go through any unnecessary pressure from other people especially people who are in love with you too. You are either with me or with them.
I will make you choose if I realise I have to compete with an unnecessary person or thing for you. If you love your work then be with your work. There are some people that I can deal with if you give them most of your time; children and sick parents. Children, especially when they are young need their parents the most so it is very necessary to spend a lot of time with them. If your parents are not sick then they do not need most of your time.
Life is unpredictable. Most of the time, we cannot see the end of things. When you fall in love, you think it is forever. Sometimes forever means; enjoy it while it lasts because things can end at any time.
Adios!