Do people even know how I truly feel about the things they do to me, around me or for me?
Has anyone ever stopped to sit and think about what he/she is doing might be affecting my life?
Has anyone ever approached me and asked me about how I felt about their actions in the past?
Do they know how I feel about what they are doing now?
Will they ever consider my feelings in their decision making?
Sometimes I keep quiet about the things happening around me, for me and to me. It does not mean I do not know what is happening, I react late because I have not yet found the right words to say or the right actions to do.
From experience I have realised that reacting immediately to most situations worsen them because I say or do things that were subjective and not objective. I need to be calm to think about the situation thoroughly and sometimes consult people for their objective views.
My silence does not mean I am ignorant or have little information about what is happening. Sometimes I know everything that is happening. I just need the right time, place, words and actions to make my feelings known.
You always need or want me.
You call me and you want me to be there.
You expect me to be your friend.
But do you even know me?
Have you taken time to get to know me?
How often do you ask me how I truly feel about everything especially our relationship?
Do you even wonder if I want to be your friend?
What about what I want?
Do you know what I want and how I want them?
I want to be heard too.
I want to be included every decision making that involves me.
I want to have the choice to choose my friends and any other relationships.
I want to love the people I choose and share my life with them.
There is a new change here.
I have choices and I am going to use them.
I do not expect you be happy about them and so if you cannot respect my choices, you can leave my life.
I want to live on my own terms and by own choices.