I have to come to the realisation that my greatest fear is not being asexual, philobobic or commitment.
My greatest fear is finding the man that would make me want to settle down.
The man that would make marriage look very perfect. The companion that will satisfy me in every aspect of my life.
Everyday I wake up and dread I would meet him soon.
I want him to come later, not now.
I want to enjoy my single life, live independently and achieve certain goals first.
I am scared I will and I know me very well, I will definitely mess things up.
Probably I have met him and I already messed it up.
I am still learning and not very matured to settle down yet.
I do not have a criteria for selecting men.
If I like you, it is enough but there are some basic things he should have.
I want an honest, hardworking and a calm man.
If he will eat anything I cook or he is a good cook, that would be a great bonus!
Unfortunately life is unpredictable.
I might even meet immediately after writing this, tomorrow or never.
I am very lazy.
Too lazy to make a relationship work.
So if I start to make an effort to make a relationship work then I must really love this man, this is how I will know that I have met him.
I hate commitments but if I start to plan our future and marriage and children and all the things that committed couples do, then he is the one.
If I start to introduce him to all the people that matter in my life, go public with him as my partner and more importantly open my mouth to say, “I will be your girlfriend or wife”…then he is the one.
Right now is not a good time to settle down.
I want to achieve certain goals and being single will make me achieve them faster.
A partner will support me but the resources that I would spend on a relationship or marriage can be used to achieve one of my many goals.
Hey boo, wherever you are please not now.
I would love to meet you this soon but I’m not ready yet.
But if you can’t wait then…
Just try and wait a little more.
Till then…
Cheers!
Mmmmm there fear u av is incureable
Hahaha! No cure at all!
a classical, theoritical feminine insight communicated excellently. gr8. u aren’t gonna meet him soon. not a prophesy ; a musculine text analysis.
I already met plenty.
ha ha ha!!
you’ve already met him but I doubt he’s not read this.
not now? well if he’s half the man I think he is, he won’t wait too long.
obviously I don’t agree with Divine. you can get committed and still maintain your independent streak that you obviously have and are afraid to lose if the man understands that you need it to be you and that’s another thing you gotta watch out for.
good piece. keep ranting!
Yes, I have met a few and I nearly settled down with them but I realised that I had to work on myself first. I have to be capable of being supportive before I start any commitment with a man.
I am actually more scared that he will not wait for me to mature enough to be with him. That is why I want him to come later, when I am ready.