HE CAME AND CONQUERED

I was content with my life; single, independent and happy

I had long romantic nights with myself; listening to music, dancing and drinking red wine

I bought myself flowers and boxes of chocolates

I told myself everyday that I was beautiful and that I loved who I was

 

 

I had built imaginary walls around my life; thick and high

The walls were my defence mechanism against people intruding into my life

People who would make me love them and then they would betray me later

I did not trust anyone

People who said they loved me had hurt me too many times

They always left me in shambles

 

Then I met you

A very unassuming man, calm and soft-spoken

We became friends

We communicated often via texts, calls and emails

You would always send me jokes to cheer me up or kiss my forehead when I was stressed

 

Gradually I let you into my life

I broke the walls I had built so only you can enter

You proved to be trustworthy and reliable

Whenever I needed a helping hand, you were there

You fixed my broken tub and even rescued my kitten from the tree

 

I loved how you said my name; in a low and husky voice

I would call you often to ask you for something you did not have because I wanted to hear your soothing voice

You would go out of your way to get them for me because you wanted to please me

The little glances we used to steal at each other while we watched romantic movies because we wanted to see who was crying at the sad scenes

You made the best scrambled eggs and rice dishes

Spoiling me in bed with your amazing culinary for breakfast

 

Sometimes I would record your facial expressions when you became jealous and I would tease you with them

All the heavenly massages you gave me especially rubbing my scalp and passing your hands through my hair while I slept

My family and friends adored you

You even met the criteria of my friends with the most ridiculous lists

Lists we knew no man could even achieve 20% of but you passed them all

Everyone told me you that you are a keeper

You were the angel I never asked for but received

 

You told me I was the most important person in your life

That you loved me more than yourself

You would always put me first

 

I felt special because you proved everything you said

You left no doubt in my mind that you were sincere

I could swear that you loved me more than anything else

 

I am confused

You never mentioned her before

Why is her name now coming up?

You are a married man with two children

You showed me their pictures and they are adorable

Your wife is beautiful

Your family looks perfect

 

Why did you start this life journey with me when you have another?

Why did you leave your family to be with me when you still loved them?

Why did you give me so much hope of a better future with a man?

 

I believed every word you said

I built our future

With children, vacations to the pacific islands and our quiet retirement home up in the hills of Aburi

I thought I had found ‘The One’ or my ‘Soul Mate’ or ‘My Better Half’

The partner I never knew existed

 

I feel like I have been knocked down by a huge bulldozer and I am trapped under it

Even though I am alive, I can feel death creeping all over me

Sneering me in the face and gradually pulling me into the depth of a cold bottomless pit

 

If you love another;

Stop going around and breaking hearts

Stop making women build dreams and hopes

Stop making fantasies come true

 

I feel like a little girl living a woman’s dreams

Dreams too expensive to afford

Dreams that can make or unmake a person

Dreams that only you can make me dream

 

I am awakened now

More wiser than before

I know I can experience both heaven and hell here on earth

Thank you for making me realise that, ‘If it seems too good to be true, it probably is.’

 

To every hurting heart that has been misled,

Healing is on the way!

 

Take care!