COMFORT EATING

Thank God food can’t talk!

I have a big bowl of Nestle Country Fresh ice cream, Pringles, Danish cookies, M&M’s and a big glass of Sprite right now with me *Please do not try this at home or anywhere else…it is not healthy!*

With Nina Simone‘s version of Sinner Man on repeat.

Junk food tastes better when I’m depressed

I have hit rock bottom

Emotional eating is one way for me to feel better

I am a comfort eater

This is the first time I am admitting it publicly

No one knows about it

I hid it from people until now

I hope today is the last time I will ever comfort eat

But I cannot guarantee that

I might comfort eat again if I do not seek professional help immediately

I’m currently dealing with a loss

A loss so deep I have to turn to food for comfort

I know food cannot talk

So it will not judge me for the mistakes I have made

If I should seek help from humans

I will get judged

So I eat to get some comfort

It is a temporal happiness

It is not healthy

I will gain weight

But fortunately for me, I have a fast metabolism and so I hardly gain weight regardless of how much I eat

I know this a bad habit

But eventually feelings will always conquer logic

The worst part of this bad habit is that I feel guilty for over eating

The problems I was trying to avoid never goes away

I become more lazy

I cut off communication with people until I feel better

It affects every aspect of my life in a negative way

I will try my best to seek the appropriate help from the right people

I will pray for strength and guidance

More importantly I hope to never make mistakes that will put me in this situation

‘Oh Sinner Man

Where am I gonna run to?’