I have been writing about betrayals a lot these days because it is one of the most painful things anyone can ever go through. It changes your views on human beings and affect your life negatively. If you do not have the right people to talk to and help you through it, you will never trust again.
There are some things that are just too difficult to get over and forget. It does not matter how much time, prayers or counseling you go through, you will still remember them and might go through either the same shock or a little shock. Whenever you see the people that caused it, you might want to take revenge or hurt them.
Sometimes I think I have forgiven them until I see or hear about them, then I am reminded about their betrayals. I get angry and never want to see or hear about them again. When I see them, I look at them and wonder how someone who claimed or is still claiming loves me will betray me.
While in the act did they not realise what they were doing was wrong?
Do they not feel guilty and come to confess immediately or even after some few days?
When they see me and are laughing with me because I have no idea about their betrayals, do they not have a conscience that tells them that they have done a terrible thing?
Do they realise how their betrayals was going to affect my life?
The worst part is when after the betrayal, they continue the relations and tell you they love you and will never hurt you.
Healing takes a long time and most of the time we never trust them again. Unfortunately, sometimes those who will never betray us the ones we distrust and treat them badly because we are scared they will also betray us.
It is difficult to look at someone who can sell you out to another person for whatever gain and love and trust him/her again.
I hope one day I will be able to forgive and love my betrayers. It may take now or forever… but whatever happens I hope I can look into their faces and say, “I forgive you.”
Adios!