A lot people who know me think I deal with breakups or loss very well.
I am not as strong as I portray myself to be. When I go through any devastating situation, I get depressed, cry, sleep and eat. These are just my temporary relief from the pain until I finally move on or solve the problem.
When I go out, I smile and laugh a lot. Whenever I meet the people causing the problem I act very strong on the outside but on the inside, I just want to breakdown and cry. It takes a lot of bravery not to breakdown and I keep telling myself to pretend to be doing fine so they think I do not care about them.
I hardly tell people how much they mean to me so most of them think I do not love them. It is very bad and it is important that they know how much I really care about them. I want to know when someone loves me. So because of this, when I have any problem with them they think since I do not love them then I am not affected by anything bad that happens to us but I go through a lot pf pain since I actually do love them.
Pretending to be strong when things are bad is one of the important things we must learn to do. It prevents people from asking too many questions when they see us sad and the people causing the problems not to happy because they think we are miserable.
For as long as I live, I will continue smiling and laughing through my pain.
Bisous!